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I can't believe myself that it’s almost a year since the last time I wrote here..Maybe because for the past year I've been so busy preparing the moving to a new workplace, and the health of my mother that had gotten worse.

well, she's passed away last year. August 23, 2012.
...

Until now it still feels like a bad dream. I sometimes can’t believe she’s already left...somehow I can’t accept that finally the disease has defeated her.

But I have to let her go, and pray that she’s now in the hands of God, in a better condition, in a better place. Amiin.

*sigh*

I never afraid of loosing things, for I know that I don’t own anything in this world. But still, the departure felt hurt to me, and I couldn’t ease my feeling without convincing myself that she is now, indeed, has been freed from her pain for the past 5 years, from 3 times a week hemodialisys, the awfully tasteless dietary menu, and  neglegance from her children that oftenly made her cry in silence....

however, 

life goes on. Thank goodness now I work in Tg. Priok, the building that is across my high school building, not very far from my junior high school, not very far from my house. It's like bringing back old memories, that I happened to spend my teenage time here.. like what, 15, 20 years ago? ..and now, still use the same public transportation like I did before. :)

You know, it's kinda mistery how dreams got finally fulfilled. About 5 years a go when I was in the bus heading to my former office, I had wished that I could one day work in the office blocks around the building I work right now. I used to work in South Jakarta area, Kuningan, Fatmawati, Sudirman..it's very far from my house and very exhausting. So I just stared at the building blocks everytime the bus passed them, thinking how many hours would be saved if I worked there, wished I could work in the shipping lines company located there, and even submitted an application to it, and didn’t get any respond from them. 

Thank God, 5 months a go. I finally got accepted in this new office, a subsidiary of IPC and an affiliation of Telkom. Isn’t God great? There’s never too late for a dream to come true, and I can’t believe that I am that lucky. 

Alhamdulillah. 

with ILCS personnel @Welcoming 2013 Party 
I realize that a dream could never been achieved without efforts. In this matter, my effort was so simple, just posted my CV in jobsdb and looked for a location around North Jakarta.
(and off course, a continuous dhuha prayer and istighfar)

Now my dream isn’t much. I would love to see my kids being able to  maximize their potentials, yet still close to the Almighty and not get influenced by this sick society we have. I want them to be proud of themselves for having done their utmost. As for myself, I would like to have someone to accompany me travelling around this beautiful country, and maybe this world if I'm that lucky :)

Well I guess that's all for now. Year after year writing the dreams but not very much in realization. But I hope these ones will come true. aamiin.. 

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