The Talking Self

So many things happened in mylife that I sometimes couldn't believe how time has been rolling fast, and years pass by to add one more number to my age. I don't mind being older, but it'll be very disappointing if I don't become wiser. Sometimes, wisdom comes in the most unpleasant ways, like loosing your belongings, loosing your pride or reputation, or even worst, loosing someone you love. However, even the darkest cloud has a silver lining, and despair itself can bring lessons to be learnt... and there's nothing better than to have family and friends that would strengthen your faith, and stand by your side to face the trouble, even just to share the burden. One said there's no party that has no end, no trouble that has no solution... We just have to believe that everything will be ok, as long as we have faith, family and friends with us. 

... 'Cause baby you're a firework Come on, show 'em what you're worth Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh" As you shoot across the sky-y-y Baby, you're a firework Come on, let your colours burst Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh" You're gonna leave 'em goin' "Oh, oh, oh" (taken from Katy Perry's song Firework)  To be honest, I don't know why this song is made to motivate people.  Doesn't the composer know that firework only lasts for a minute? What's the good of a light that only lasts for a minute? I always remember a very old proverb from China: Always choose a candle, rather than a firework. Because a candle lights longer than a firework although it may not be as beautiful as a firework.  The moral is, according to this proverb, stability is better than a glimpse of glamour.  If you only had these two options, what do you prefer to hold in the dark, a candle or a firework? :D

Yesterday I found a very funny notes on a piece of paper written by my son. He wrote some notes about his sister, which pointed at her unpleasant behavior according to him (off course). I brought the paper to my office and showed it to my friends, and they all laughed too. Now they know "the battle" between my kids...hahaha.. My kids are so adorable. I think they are angels in the form of children. God sent them to me to cheer me up. I remember when I was still in college, I couldnt find someone to talk, my house was empty all the time, my father worked in other town, my mother busy with her activities, my brothers and sisters, well, they all had their own business. I had friends, but they could only cheer me up when I was with them. Once I got back to my house, I felt so empty. So I prayed to God. God, give me something to call my own. I want a child, if I had to, I would adopt one. About a year after the prayer, I was proposed by my ex husband and 3 months later we ...

Yesterday was very very annoying. You know, last month I have recruited a friend to fill the.....................position in my office. Actually, based on his experience, I didnt think he's suitable for the position, but he kept on asking the opportunity and convinced me that he would be excellent to fill the position. So, I melted. I recommended him to my boss and to my surprise she accepted him without any doubt. I thought this might be my friend's luck, maybe it's his destiny to work with us. So this guy, lets call him Popo, finally worked with us, I prepared the contract, I explained to him that he's on probation for three months, the benefits, and some allowances that he got. He agreed and signed the contract. Three days after he joined, we sent him to Banjarmasin after I gave him some instructions and copy of documents that he might need to bring. Things seemed to run well, he kept on updating me his activities etc. However he has the meal allowance issue...

For information, one of the problems that really bugs me is a maid problem. Mylife is not easy, but it'll get worse when I dont have a maid. you see, I need a maid for taking care my mother. I should pay a nurse, but I dont have enough money to provide a nurse, yet I still have to have someone to cook and clean the house. Therefore, I always look for a maid who can at least shower my mother every morning and accompany her, while she can also cook and clean the house. I'm not a demanding person, I seldom instruct my maid to do this and that. I used to let them do the prime works, and when they have spare time, I told them to clean the window etc. Even my kids never ask anything from the maid. They have their grandpa who always ready for them, so as for the kids, I need the maid just to look after them when theres no one at home. (e.g. my mom's routine Hemodialisis). Before the era of continuously-changing-maid in the last two years, I have my cousin taking care my mo...